ashley_squishy

It's been forever. Tumblr is down at the moment, so I figured I'd post here.

Life hasn't changed much. I've graduated from college, looking for a job. It seems like a neverending search. I am also studying to take a test to become a certified special ed teacher.

I found out I'm going to be an aunt! Kind of a shocker. The family is PISSED, but oh well, what can you do about it now?


David's got himself a good job, and we're just waiting so we can finally move and be on our own. I feel like a lame-o and wish I had more friends. I have like, none. Ha

And just like that, I've run out of things to say.

i'm horrible. there's a spoiled glass of milk sitting next to me. it smells awful, and i'm too lazy to throw it away. lol that's bad.

This week has been the hardest week ever for me, and it's only gonna get worse.
Me and David are in a really tight spot, we need money so bad it's not funny.
Why do people say that? I've never understood, it's not funny to begin with?
I hate unexpected things like this.

But this has brought us even closer together. We've decided to move in together after we have jobs and money saved up. He told me he wants to be with me forever. That's a big step for him. We discussed what his plans and goals are for the future and I'm seriously happy about it. He's growing up and finally sorting things out.

How exciting. Life is happening too fast.

I hate not having money. I hate not doing anything. I feel like I am a waste of a person at the moment.

I have had like 3 interviews over the past 2 months. No luck. Not enough experience. How are you supposed to get experience when you're never given the chance?

David doesn't have a job either.I want us to work and be able to go out and do nice things. I'm tired of sitting at his house alone all the time. Don't get me wrong, I love having alone time. I just can't stand not doing anything, ever. He never wants to go anywhere, he never wants to invite anyone over, nothing. I left tonight because he asked me to come over...then went to sleep.

I don't know what's wrong. I don't know if its this way now because I'm not happy with myself or if it's some other reason. I love him to death. I want to be with him forever, it's just weird right now. I want to find a job, I want to start waking up early. I can't seem to do either one of those things. I can't make myself do anything anymore. I'm just not happy with myself and it makes me feel like crap.


I'm gonna paint my nails and who knows, sleep?

I'm coming back. I'll be using this and tumblr.


I've been feeling pretty good about myself.
I'm just getting over some stomach bug.

Painting my nails bright blue. I love it. :)

Tomorrow, I am going to take pictures of everything.
I guess, documenting my day in a way.

I'm itching to get back in the classroom.
I finished my student teaching last month and miss the kids so much.

BAH. I'm already out of things to talk about.
What gives?

• 20:41 anyone want to buy a used zune? 4g green zune. perfect condition, just isn't used anymore. let me know.

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• 18:18 can't someone be happy for me?
• 23:44 i so want some good candy right about now. lol
• 03:35 dentist appointment in the morning. not looking forward to it.
• 10:27 Theres a crazy lady here mumbling and talking to herself. She keeps acting like shes crying. I love waiting rooms.
• 11:30 no cavities! but have to have my wisdom teeth removed. :(
• 16:50 why am i so down? i should be happy.

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i have a tumblr...follow me

http://ashleysquishy.tumblr.com/

its new so its not much yet.
i probably won't be using lj much anymore.

i always forget about this thing.


i start student teaching in a week.
very nervous. not sure what to expect.

me and david are doing great.
i'm very happy.

i just found out that i have ADHD. lol
started taking some medicine the other day.
it makes me feel....weird. kinda like i have no emotions.
its only been a few days so i'm gonna see if anything changes,
i go back in a few weeks to see how its doing anyway.
we'll see.


i'm off to finish watching mystery diagnosis and
finish getting ready lol.

I'm bored at our hotel.



Dallas is cool.
My family is being irritating.
Going to Fort Worth tomorrow,
then Round Rock on Friday
and San Marcos. Then finally home.


AHH home, I miss David already.
He's out of town too, I'm not sure when he's coming back.